Little Angel

Please pray for my friends, Todd & Joni, they recently lost their 4-month old baby girl, Anna Todd. This last week I have been nearly consumed in grief for them, as I can not imagine their pain or suffering. Losing G would be devastating to me. All week, I have hugged him a little tighter, kissed him a little more, and was way more over-protective over him at the pool and while playing. I know he just wanted me to back off, but he was also stung by two critters (wasp and maybe a yellow jacket) and attacked by a cat. What would have happened if I had not been nearby?

Lately, I have been reading the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. It has really made an impact on me, especially this last week. We can say we are Christian and we can do/say/be all these Christian things, but at the end of the day it is hard to give our whole self to God. It is hard to rationalize and prioritize, wholly, according to Him. When I first heard of the loss of Anna Todd, my first thought was "why" but it isn't my "why" I should be thinking off. God has a plan for all of us. He knows why He needs little Anna Todd with him. He knows why she was here for just four short months. He knows the impact she will make on so many. Only He knows. So, no matter how tight I hug G, it isn't up to me. I can attempt to protect him from flying critters and the deep end of the pool, but I am his parent. God is his guardian. I have to trust and have faith.